Remodel My Heart

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I live in a beautiful home. A few years ago, when I was 6 months pregnant with my first child, my husband and I moved into our current house. I have loved this home since the moment I set eyes on it, except for one thing: the kitchen. I’m an avid cook and this kitchen, while beautiful, has an electric stove and basic black appliances with a wall between the kitchen and the family room. I’ve always wanted a “chef’s kitchen” with a high-end cooktop and stainless appliances, and an open floorplan so that I can see the rest of the house from the kitchen. But, this house was right for us in every other way, so I sacrificed that dream. For several years, I’ve lived with the “way things are” and honestly, it’s fine. But…

Now, we find ourselves with an opportunity to make some minor changes to the house. My first priority is to knock down the wall between the kitchen and the dining room and to replace the electric cooktop with something better. My husband doesn’t spend much time in the kitchen so he has a hard time understanding why I feel strongly about these changes. That, and we REALLY need to replace our rotting deck and upgrade the outdated flooring and bathroom upstairs. We’ve been discussing all of this for months and are finally coming to some agreement. I’m going to remodel my kitchen!

All of this got me thinking about the state of my heart. I’m a good person. I take care of my family, I work hard, I’m intelligent and responsible and caring. But for a long time I’ve been living with some less-than-ideal equipment. And I’ve convinced myself that it’s fine for now. I work every day around my anger, my selfishness, my irresponsibility with time and money. I tell myself that when the resources come along I’ll work to fix those issues. But not yet. I don’t have enough time, energy, support.

But the truth is, I already have all that I need. In the Bible, Philippians says “You can be sure that God will take care of everything you need, his generosity exceeding even yours…” Many times I have read that to mean that God will supply my physical needs. Food, shelter, money, health. Recently I realized that it also means He will provide what I need to remodel my heart.

This is a bit cheesy, but it’s what I’ve been imagining: If I will only ask, God will provide the granite countertops of selflessness. The wood floors of honesty. The custom cabinetry of serenity. IF I WILL ONLY ASK.

Are you living in a less than ideal “house?” Are you working around a “floorplan” in your life that keeps you from being your best self? Are you waiting for God to force you into giving up the things that keep you fettered? We don’t have to wait, sisters! We can remodel our hearts TODAY. Don’t wait another minute. Let’s ask God to come in and design the space that is already His to begin with.

One Comment

  1. Love this, Catherine!! What a great example, and I love the phrase “remodel my heart” — that’s going to stick with me.

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